Fast and Testimony Sunday

I didn't bear my testimony today in church, but I felt prompted to discuss the many times my Heavenly Father has blessed me more than I deserved. Don't worry, I won't get graphic.

There is nothing I remember more vividly of the day I received my endowment than the constant companionship of the spirit. I knew without any doubt in my mind that I was doing the right thing, at the right time, for ALL the right reasons. When my mom asked me what I was thinking, or how I was feeling, I simply told her I knew my Heavenly Father was proud of me. I knew I was doing the right thing. I knew that then, and I know that now. I also love that the spirit can testify truth of anything to us, so that we can say I know, instead of I believe.

There is also nothing I remember more vividly than the sorrow of sin. I was with a boyfriend, unsupervised and it was the heat of the moment. No, I did not go all the way (don't lie you were wondering). But there is little I remember more than the bitter tears I sobbed in his arms. He felt like a jerk too because he did deeply care for me. Yet, love is not enough. I have learned through Travis that true love is supported by Heavenly Father, and it feels good.

I find it hard sometimes to remember the wonderful warmth of the spirit. I find it much easier to remember my sin, than to remember my greatest joy. In saying that, I have a difficult time knowing that I should wait to try again for a child. I say this to you my friends, because there is little I want more than to be a mother. More importantly, I want to please my Heavenly Father.

Friends, I hope that you can have the strength to fall to your knees and pray to your Heavenly Father about anything you feel. And know that even when you are doing all the right things, it still hurts to see others rebelling against God. It hurts to see those that know, become one of many believers. I have no doubt that we can all appreciate the comfort of the still small voice.

I have a testimony of families, and I know I will be with mine forever. I am glad I married a man who would put God before me in his life. I'm glad that if I wasn't around Travis would still be an honorable, worthy man.


I leave these thoughts with you on this beautiful Sabbath day. I hope you can feel the spirit guide, and that you can feel our Heavenly Father's approval, love, and support.

With Love,
Heather